Project Gal Week Four

Ah!!! Finally Week Four!! Theme of the week (and my absolute favorite) iiiis.....

Well, the technical term is "Deciding on What to Start With", but I like shopping much more! However, I'm technically broke. Within the past two months, I've spoiled my self with a bigger TV (because the old one made it impossible to read text while game playing), and a tablet (because lugging a laptop to school was getting annoying). As a result, I want to pay off my bills before I do any MAJOR shopping, and I'm not trying to rack up more debt while doing so! Instead, I've been making a list of all the products I want to/ intend to buy, that way when I do begin shopping, I'll be pretty much squared away on the products I want to purchase to achieve my look. Be warned, the list gets pretty long, and there's a possibility that some things I've already purchased. This will also help me keep track, even though I have everything recorded in a little black book I carry in my bag. Here's my list, if there are any links, feel free to click them to be redirected to their respective website, you might find something useful!! :D

10/18/2012
Payday has FINALLY come! I think it's time to reward myself a bit and update my eBay shopping spree XD

1. Lighted Mirror (free standing currently watching) *purchased!*
2. Eyelashes (my faves thus far- upper, upper and lower)
3. Makeup compact with empty wells (for pressing powders) *purchased!*
4. Rubbing Alcohol (for pressing powders) *purchased!*
5. Highlighting powder for nose (I purchased this recently, can't wait to get it!) *got it!*
6. Clear UV Gel (as a starter for my nails) OR lightless gel  (iffy on this one...)
7. UV Lamp (depends on gel type)
8. Eyelash Tweezers *purchased!*
9. Makeup Brushes
10. Dragon Ear Cuff (I saw in the Pyramid Collection catalog, but too expensive... to eBay!) *purchased!*
11. Floor Length Mirror
12. Lycee Eye Drops *purchased!*
13. Nail design tools (Dotting pen, UV brush...ect.) *purchased!*
14. Hair accessories (anything I can think of!)

I obviously don't intend to go out and buy everything at once, I only plan to purchase little by little and I update the list as I go. Once I try out my new highlighting powder, I'll make sure to put a review up as soon as I can! 

Upcoming Posts:

The Challenge Part 3: Nails

Hampton Mini Vacay Gets!

Prepping for the AUSA Meet! ^O^

Update!! Halloween Dreams... and Vampy Nightmares

Updated!! I came across this video on beautylish.com.... and it's exactly what I've been looking for!! Enjoy! <3

When it comes to Halloween, I'll be honest... to have a day where I can step into someone else completely unnatural makes me extremely happy. I think for the past few years I've stuck to being a vampire, one because it's the easiest look to pull off for work (and because those pumpkin flashing pin-and-earring-and-necklace sets are kinda tacky XP), two is that it can be sexy as hell (curse you modern day interpretations!), three is because it's just fun! Last year I did the Halloween getup for work, fangs and some red glittery lips, but now I have something added to my aresnal! And that is...... *drum roll*

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I originally placed an order for the I.Fairy Hanabi Red lenses, but they were out of stock so I settled for these instead. Sadly because of my stalling last year, the lenses arrived on the day of Halloween, which didn't give me the chance to soak the lenses overnight to clean out the preservatives. In order to keep them safe and clean, they've stayed in their glass vials unopened.... waiting for their time....

With that said, I've some other tools I'll be using to achieve the look I'm going for, using what I already have, plus a few new things possibly >:3

This love color is Stoplight Red from the Wet N' Wild Collection. Despite being a cheap-priced drugstore product, the color deposit is stunning, it was the main reason why I fell in love with classic red lips to begin with! I would use either this or my NYX Plush Red that I ordered from cherryculture.com (see Part 1 of my Cherry Culture Haul!!!)

Also, I'll be adding to the toolbox something to add to the drama effect... a black lip liner <3 ^O^ I've purchased NYX's Blackberry and it should arrive in a few days, I'm almost too excited! Until then, I will sit and wait patiently for my package to arrive.

And the most obvious top off for any vampire look are these babies.....

My dear trusty Scarecrow Love Bites Fangs! Their small than Scarecrow's usual products, which makes these perfect for work. I wore them last year at work and the reactions were priceless... some of my patients didn't even know they were there until I looked at them head on or laughed XD then one of the nurses dragged me from place to place, commented on my makeup with someone, then told me to smile or say something so the fangs would show. But now that I've moved to a more reclusive area at the hospital, I think I can afford to be a bit more dramatic without worrying about running into my supervisors... fingers crossed! 

As far as eye makeup is concerned, I think I'll save that for when I actually begin to test out how I actually want to look, so I will probably be saved for another post out in October somewhere... for now I'll begin on my Project Gal post, based on a Facebook Doc one of the girls from the group uploaded. I'm starting on Month One, which is based on researching sub-styles and skimming magazines and well, learning about the gyaru I want to become. That should be up sometime next week, and will be continually updated as I acquire more knowledge, that way if anyone should come across it, they might find something useful too! :D

I leave you with this inspo pic I found on Google, the look I'm aiming for however, is more dramatic I think (well obviously with red contacts lenses!).

Sweet Dreams...

Way Down But Not Out

Sadly (or maybe fortunately?) this isn't a gyaru post mostly, but instead, a wonderful time for me to vent...

I am the queen of bottling emotions, everyone close to me has pointed this out several times, but I see nothing wrong with sleeping with my burdens just so I won't trouble anyone. Every time I set a breaking point for myself, I make sure that when I reach it, I am somewhere no one can hear me, and I hope any normal person would agree that sometimes a few tears dulls the heartache for at least a little while longer. When I'm just about ready to express my feelings, to pull someone under the umbrella to keep them from the rain, it turns out that they already have their own issues... my timing is never good. So as a result, I keep quiet, I smile, I nod and agree, and I send them off with a hug and a laugh. But as of late, I've noticed a downturn in my emotions, I feel like any issues I have I can't take them to my friends or even my own family. There are numerous times when I say I'm going to go out and live on my own, be the independent young black woman my grandmother feels I need to be (so why can't I move out yet, again?), but I need the links... the chains that I keep around all my loved ones feet to keep them near, because I feel that without them, I'm truly nothing. 

Even more so, I wonder why I made this decision to follow the gyaru lifestyle... this is my deepest secret, one that I have broken into pieces and given the fragments to four very important people in my life. My (self-proclaimed) sister knows I have a blog, my [younger] sister knows I want to become more fashion-forward, and slowly becoming addicted to makeup.Then my sweet beloved boyfriend, knows that I want to lose weight, to be healthier and fit into nicer clothing, and his simple reply is that he'll love me no matter how much weight I ever gain or lose. And finally, my best friend... well, she kinda knows nothing about it, she knows I own circle lenses, and she hates it, she knows that I'm changing, and she hates it, she knows that now that she's moved 45 minutes away, we've drifted apart into our busy school  and work lives, and she hates the most. This friend of mine, has made horrible decisions, and instead of bringing my burdens, my concerns, my most deepest secrets, I take her tears, her fear, her dark clouds. I sometimes really can't stand what has happened to us, it seems like we only meet up  out of some required formality,  things don't feel genuine anymore. But, as I've said, it's because I don't share things anymore like I used to, we can sit on the phone for hours, and I'll just listen and giggle to all her stories, no matter how disappointed I am in her judgement, and I'll simply reply that my life will never be as exciting as hers, when there really is so much I want to say. Not only to her, but to everyone else as well. 

It gets rather lonely sometimes, I feel that maybe trying gyaru isn't really who I ought to be, that maybe this is all a fleeting dream and that I should give up and go back the stereotypical 'normal' me. But even then, I wouldn't be happy. I reflect on the manga Skip Beat (it's been awhile lol), how the main character, after all her hair and makeup, she becomes someone completely different, someone completely amazing and stunning. I think things like these are what brought my to gyaru, with my confidence shattered, and sick of being a pushover, I feel that this is my road to take and I can't give up yet. There are so many before me, that have already gone on ahead of me, and yet, I cannot learn just from watching from the wayside. God has given me a mind to think, a mouth to speak, eyes to see, lungs to breathe, and so much more. As one of His Children, I refuse to let life pull me down completely, I will transcend above this, and be beautiful, inside and out.

Skip Beat - Because you never give up till you reach the stars and beyond!!